How are you today?
Actually stop reading this and answer that question while acknowledging God’s presence in your heart. His presence is powerful. It listens and is deeply interested in what you have to say. You’re not a burden.
Ok if you’ve come back great, if not, seriously just go do that.
This is what that will do for you: it’ll light up your entire being.
And that light could be a literal light of understanding, perspective change, or a final realization of something you haven’t allowed yourself to think about. Even better, it could be the literal lightness of feeling lighter, more free, and completely still.
Where else… [what else] in the world promises that? Sure, there are a ton of remedies for a quick fix, a short satisfying rest, but it’s practically a band aid in the moment. Usually Band-Aids aren’t strong enough to stick on long enough and you end up needing another one, and another one, and another one…
How have I been, you ask? I recently underwent a lot of sleepless nights. I don’t wish lack of sleep on anyone. In recent events of turning back to a scheduled routine, trying to shake off the holiday treats, getting adjusted to stress and trying to not let it beat me, and disciplining my time it’s just inevitable that sleep either falls by the wayside or gets interrupted. In attempt to fix it I made a deliberate decision to make it a priority and be in bed at 9 pm resting. Hashtag Let things happen but don’t let them control you.
All the factors attacking my sleep schedule need to leave. For me to think anxiety, insecurity, fears, loneliness, isolation, and all the darkness I undergo ARE inevitabilities is not normal. It’s not God’s will for us to undergo this kind of darkness! Yet, since we don’t spend as much time with Him as we should, we begin to settle for the biggest lie of our human nature: darkness can’t be defeated.
“I can’t lose 10 pounds.” “I can’t change my diet.” “I can’t change my thinking patterns.” “I can’t change my relationship.” “I can’t change this lifestyle/habit/or mood.”
“It’s just how life is.”
Or you sing 2pac’s, “that’s just the way it is” line in your head every time something happens that upsets you.
I remember assuming my fears and insecurities were meant to be a part of me and the heavy darkness of thinking, “oh my goodness I have to live with this the rest of my life..” … they could never change and I can’t be free from them. The End.
That inevitable darkness humans have always struggled with; how you see yourself, how you judge the way you walk and act, or the way you dread the drive to work in the morning or going home to a chaotic household is not constant. We are not meant to succumb to the darkness of the world for we literally have the capacity, power, and grace to overcome it.
God did not design the human being fragile. He did not design the human being afraid or fearful. He did not design the human heart ugly or emotionless. He made the human being in his image and likeness; bold, strong, beautiful, loving, caring, strong, brave, kind, mighty and so much more. (But emphasis on the loving part; He made us totally and completely surrounded and filled with love).
God is the only thing capable of turning darkness into light for He is Light Himself. We must, with all out energy and strength, spend time learning His ways and letting them be more powerful than the ways of the world which have always promised sadness, insecurity, and fear. We are influenced by our sinful tendencies; we search and search for endless experiences of love and satisfaction in the wrong places: that’s sin. It disturbs our soul the same way bottomless cookies disturb my six-pack abdominals (that don’t even exist…yet?). Our bodies, our souls need to be liberated for the sake of regaining lost joy that’s why we seek things out– the joy of being saved, loved, honored, cared for, and protected by a God strong enough to handle ANYTHING.
Darkness is nothing more than an area of your life that needs, craves, and longs for love. Darkness is a longing for God and a voice that invites you to draw close to Him. Darkness is the stress of life filling you more than His grace of changing and strengthening beauty. Darkness is the perceptions and opinions of others that mean nothing (for they too are living in darkness). Darkness is distance from good, pure love. Every part of our being longs for love. God is not afraid of your brokenness, addictions, or your fears. He can and will shun them away—surrender to Him with a loud, “I am done. SOS help.” (Or whatever you say to emphasize that)
Sure, God could have made us perfect like Himself but the discovery of our own ability to choose Him and then see Him work is how we fall in love with Him. We could never worship something that forced us to worship itself. Don’t forget the fact that you might not want to experience being saved.
Darkness is not dark for God.
And with His help, with His love, with His mercy, with a share in the gift of His power and grace, they will not be dark for us and we’ll even be able to laugh about it one day.
“This is what we have heard from him, and the message that we are announcing to you: God is light; there is no darkness in him at all.” 1 John 1:5
He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. After he heals the wounds, he pours new love and opportunities right in front of you. Think it’s impossible? You haven’t thought to pray. Believe me thinking about praying in my dire circumstances is not usually my first thought but when I do it and participate in it I am always left thinking, “well that would have helped a few hours ago.”
So, again… how are you today? Where in your life can God pour His loving into you? In your work, how you see yourself, in your home? Remember everything you want in within your reach so go ask for it.