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little bit of faith. weights. & a protein shake to enjoy this beautiful morning. 🔥 Healthy self.... look it’s also, heal thy self.... 🔥 remember, you will “never tire of doing good.” 💗 2 thessalonians 3:13 💗 # #staystrong #loveyourbody #mindbodysouljourney #begoodtoyou #doitfortheprocess #thankyoujesus #strongforyourself #strongforothers #selfcareisntselfish #trusttheprocess
“Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in a love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the mornings, what you will do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything." - Pedro Arrupe, S.J. #love #thankyoujesus #allyouneedislove
if you go all day without the pressures, anxieties, hurts, bitternesses, and troubles of life you’re a liar. lack of love from people is a very tolling part of our days. AND experiencing the most chaotic and non-stop scheduled of days is be WAY more than I want or envision, but my Goodness... If you take but 10 minutes to BE in the presence of a God who is nothing but a spirit of love... all the love we imagine exists, you’ll FEEL, embrace, and heal from ALL the attacks in this world. You won’t care who harmed you that day. Just an FYI, if you’re STILL searching for the place of perfection in someone or something just stop and realize it’s only Jesus. There’s no time to waste. This man shed His blood and did all He could to go the lengths for your saving redemption. A man who went black and blue for love of you (hey! #poet). He willingly wounded himself, exceeding exhaustion, to prove His love for us. . . What an honor and gift we don’t even embrace or receive; to know, read, meditate, consider and participate in the mercy, sweetness, love, beauty, and goodness of Jesus. Who is the only POWER that can heal this world today. #restore #transform #prayer #power #mercy #jesus #myonlylove #wannasaymore #thankyoujesus #praiseandglory #mercymuliplied #graceupongrace ❤️
It’s an ONGOING journey towards self love. especially your body. I wrote some words for you in a letter. peep my bio for my site. . . “here’s what I wish I could have told you along the way.... I’d tell you to hustle. Not to prove others wrong, to be skinny, or to look good for a date or photo opp, no. You’re at war with yourself and you can’t turn against yourself, you have to love you, all of you. The way you look, move, eat, dance, all of it — so hustle, run after it.” . . to all the women out there fighting to love the most precious part about them (your body), this ones for you 💋🔥😚 #lettertoyou #bodypositivity #healingquotes #inspiration #selfcaresunday #selflove #journeytohealth #thankyoujesus #lookupchild #glorytogod🙏 #youarestrongerthanyouthink #youaresexy #formyladies❤️ #unapologeticallyme #nomakeupselfie
five : thirty am 🙏🏻 🔥 💥 #xendurance #thanksfuelfive @jasonxnd #eightweekchallenge #frinallyfriday #tgif #jlo #challengeyourself #getitgirl #mygirl @cstmartine
Yesterday was moms birthday. We look good here. Celebrate life. God bless our mess. *insert other Instagram worthy message here* #blahblahblah #familyovereverything💯 #staybeautiful #mysisters #girlpower #sistersquad #thankyoujesus #blessed #wegotitfromourmama #dontmesswithmama #wherewereweagain
🎙 so I started a podcast.. 😊 it’s about life, truth, beauty, and goodness. it’s about finding God and trying to make sense of his creative ways.. love and life. and His most obvious creations: US, humans. Remember that God is deeply interested in your life @findinggod.podcast 🌟💚🌟💚🌟💚🌟💚🌟 #checkitout #ornot #podcast #catholic #christianity #jesus #podcasting #meaningoflife #love #hope #purpose #beauty #truth #prayingforyou #thankyoujesus
“you may have noticed that even after the most thrilling experience (a success, a party, a date) when you quiet yourself and are alone, you perceive deep down a small voice saying, “is that all there is?” nothing is enough. not praise, not success, not youth, not love. you yearn for endless beauty and joy, endless love and delight. you cannot help being an incarnate thirst and nor can i. we were born that way and we will die that way. we differ in how we satiate that thirst. some go up blind alleys. others go to The Fountain. but all seek.” ~ Thomas Dubay 🧡💛💖#deepquotes #truth #beauty #goodness #faith #truth #jesusisking #jesuscalling #jesuslovesyou #thankyouJ


“I just don’t get how you can trust God Like it’s nothing.” 

I always want to take control over a lot of different areas in my life. I always think that if I am not always constantly thinking about certain things they would cease to happen. Yet, there’s a huge difference between desiring something and intentionally persisting towards it 🆚  deliberately thinking about it and letting it cause angst.

For example; marriage. I want it.

There was a year I desired, with every ounce of mental and emotional energy in me, to know what God has planned for me. I actually thought He would just tell me. (😂) I wanted to know the exact time things would fall into place, with whom, and how. The incertitude killed me and I hated it. With a never ending tapping foot and a clouded mind in anxious wonderment I’d, “maybe today I’ll meet him!” I grew weary.  I even started to think I blew it with old flames, or that if I had taken another direction I could be with that person.

I started to concoct all these scenarios in my head of how and where and when the man of my dreams would fall into my lap. I started to timeline my life and base my happiness on whether or not I had a relationship yet, and if I wasn’t married by ‘x’ years old, I would be miserable.

That, my friends, is called ANGST.

I thought that if I didn’t spend every moment thinking about these things, consciously looking for the guy, then the minute I let it go, or let go of my control, I would never obtain marriage and I would miss the opportunity to pursue someone great.

Unless I was thinking, acting, praying, or agonizing over every thing I chose to do (which novenas to say) I would never make strides towards the goal.  I never just enjoyed the art of mastering myself and enjoying life, I never sought potential dates out in a masculine friendship, I over-sexualized everything, and I did it because my mind wasn’t at peace until I could rest in knowing and possessing this “thing.”

“God just tell me who it is.” 

“God just give me a relationship, I am ready.”

“God why are you waiting?” 


What I learned is that the deliberate will of God is that I decide for myself, even if I am absolutely unsure. Go on dates. Talk to that cute boy. He’s not going to show up on your couch.

I was afraid of this because I didn’t want to be wrong and there is a ton of sneaky pride in that. I also based a lot of my decisions off of other peoples judgments towards my actions wondering what people would think about my potential mates.

But making decisions in uncertainty is abandonment.

What brings me peace now is not desiring to know who I will marry but knowing I strive to seek God sincerely. Notice how I didn’t say perfectly.  Sincerely: “God is real, alive, He loves me, and He is acting with me and I have no ulterior motives behind it. I welcome Him in my life and want Him involved in my decisions.”

When we take a wrong turn on any kind of road trip, our GPS redirects us. That’s what God does every time we need it. We can’t be redirected (or directed) if we never get going. This is the process we must undergo in all areas of life.

Nothing will become clear in an intense prayer session, in another novena, but only in growing with God in every situation and letting Him speak to my heart and comfort it.

Cause’ it’s not about the answer, it’s about the relationship.

If you want to grow in finding the will of God for your life, it often reveals to be deeper and wider than your desire for tangible things; relationships, wealth, health, etc. My desire for marriage revealed to me a lot (read Theology of the Body for that good stuff). Things like, “would I even want to settle down right now?” “Am I even capable of commitment and relationship?” “am I even ready for kids financially and physically?”

In your desire, don’t seek an answer, just simply be and go, and pray to Him because He probably wants to teach you something.

In John 5 a man who had been ill for 38 years was finally seen by Jesus. Jesus looked at him, knowing what the last 38 years were like for him, and said, “do you want to be well?” the sick man answered him, “Sir, I have no one to… (essentially help him get well)… and Jesus said, “rise, take up your mart and walk.” Immediately the man became well, took up his mat, and walked.

When Jesus saw the man again He said, “Look, you are well; do not sin any more so that nothing worse may happen to you.” Jesus would say that to me in my nagging, “I see you. I know what you’ve wanted all these years ~ you are well, just don’t sin and nothing worse can happen.” 

I will always desire marriage, but it won’t give me an abundant life. An abundant life is not necessarily obtaining all the things I want in and through marriage, relationships, health, and wealth but abundance is living in total dependence of Jesus.

When Jesus is around I am always in good company, I am always joyful, I am always my best self, I always know, SEEN, heard, cherished….. I am loved.

He is a genius for desiring to rest on our hearts because that’s the place everything stems from. Not letting my days, my moments, or my life fit into this “perfect” mold or expectation of anything allowed me to find inner serenity beyond my expectations. Getting surprised, and being on the lookout for what Jesus wants to do with my life is worth seeking out even in the uncertainty.

“The Lord loves him more who knows how to decide for himself without equivocating, even when he is uncertain, and who abandons himself with confidence to God as to the consequences, rather than the one who torments his spirit unceasingly in an effort to know what God expects of him and who never decides… perfectionism doesn’t have much to do with sanctity.” -Fr. Phillipe

The more difficult, the more He yearns to help. Anxieties wrap me up in myself, trapping my thoughts and leading me to isolation like that man for 38 years. I break free of them in the name of Jesus on my heart, in my life, and just living my daily life. Giving God control is patience, it is enjoying life, it is letting him spend time with us. It is inviting Him into the parts and paths you choose every day. God is your never-ending GPS, He’ll reroute you if He needs to.

There are not many firm, true, and stable foundations to place our trust and hope in. Friends fail us (not even intentionally sometimes), family can get chaotic, and even our moods and behaviors and successes fluctuate. God, though, God is always constant and moving, orchestrating an entire life plan, just for you.

One comment on “What it means to ‘Give God Control’

  1. Desiray says:

    When we stop trying to make things happen we are giving control to God.


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